when "he" loved me

When he loved me,
Everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together lives within my heart
And when he was mad,
I was there to calm his anger
And when he was happy,
So was I
When he loved me

Through the days and the weeks
We had each other, that was all
Just he and I together,
Like it was meant to be

And when he was lonely,
I was there to comfort her
And I knew that he loved me

So the months went by
I stayed the same
But he began to drift away
I was left alone
Still I waited for the day
When he'd say, "I will always love you"

Lonely and forgotten,
I'd never thought he'd look my way
And he smiled at me and held me just like he used to do
Like he loved me
When he loved me

cobaan

hmm . hmmm . hmmmmmmm. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!

-that piercing sound fill my ear with lot of doubt-

yaaa, hari ini adalah hari yang BAGUS buat aku. mungin yang tau tentang ini dari awal sampe akhir cuma si Rizka, yg waktu itu ada disitu disaat aku bereaksi meliahat sesosok lelaki putih, berbadan besar kayak beruang kutub dan bermotor KLX wrna hijau yg udah dimodif tiba tiba datang memasuki halaman sekolahku. dalam hati ga percaya, " masa itu dia?" sudah berharap kalau itu memang iya. tapi memang namanya takdir, susah buat ditentuin.ckck . alhasil, ternyata hanya sama motor, sama postur.tapi, skalipun bukan dia, tetep aja mengingatkan. aih, ngenes gilaak denger suara motornya.

buat Rizka, maaf karena telah "nggremet" tanganmu berkalikali :D

just for tonight

this night, makes me so sick and so tired of thinking about him. yaa, i know this is about my lability after all. But, in the case like this there's a thousand good reason for thinking about him tonight.

on the night like this, i was thinking that:

- he was irreplaceable

- he was amazing

- there's no chance for me to get him

- being desperado senorita was sucks

- all i want to do just be with him (again)

- i can spin the time counterclockwise

- i can't stand out without him

- i want he to stay beside me

- it's amazing if this heart could be reunited

- there's nobody can't stop me love him

- i can't explain this feeling with words

- i am so tired of tears

- i am not done wishing him was here

- it's been months, and i can't let you go

- for some reason, i can't get over us

- i am not regret what I've done with him

- back to the past, feeling tears inside my heart

- forgetting him, the hardest thing that i ever try

- hoping him back again, the useless thing i ever made

- aargh, too much about him

enough is enough. no more walking around with my head down. i am so over being blue, crying on him this night. hope tomorrow this lability will vanishing it self :D

"every single moment in my life reminds me of you and makes me know how precious you are"

3 months ago :)

" Don't you know baby, that this feeling keeps me waiting like you'll come back to me"

After 3 months from that day, it's hard to believe that i still have love on you. Even it less than before... But, to be with you it's the best damn thing ever. there's nobody gettin' over you. There's a chance to you to be refilled, but i grant there's no chance to you to be replaced. fell in love with you not makes me feel disappointed. Wish i could spin my world into reverse, just to have you back again.

hey boy, don't you know? knowing your heart, makes me feel so in love :) and be with you, makes me feel safe an warm. and your presence always makes me wanting you more and more.But now, i have to release "this" you. With all my heart, i said this LOUDLY : why suddenly i do miss him so much, even both of us had already end our realtionship long loooong time ago?

1 year ago, maybe more pt.1

same as the label, this post is dedicated to you (especially) and also one of my story too

so, this is the beginning :)

Once upon a time, there's a teenage girl who fell in love with her friend, also a teenager (and a boy, of course!). They were one school, and on the same grade too. So, it's possible to them to meet often. And one day, they met for the first time. Some event reconcile them, and that was unpredictable for two of them. They feel some chemistry between them. but they don't know that they loving each other.

Day on day, month on month. They spend their day with normal activity as a student. But, because of the same school and the same grade, they have a lot of activities that should do together. And, once again, they haven't already yet about loving each other. Until someday, that boy screwed up one's courage to ask that girl about their feeling over this time.

boy : hey

girl : oh hey

boy : umm, i wanna ask you for something, do you mind?

girl : oh sure! what can i do?

boy : no offense... you like me, rite! Do you?

girl : what? what do you mean?

boy : naaaa, don't lie to me. or i'll offline

girl : what! noooo!

boy : eh, be honest girl! i know your feeling

girl : noo, i mean don't leave me. do not offline :(

boy : :D

girl : why you grinning at me like that? it's not funny

boy : confess it!!!

girl : err, i hate this conversation

boy : confess, confess, confess

girl : NO WAY!

boy : okay, then i going to offline... bye :P

girl : okay okay okay. i confess to you that i like you since that event

boy : hahahhahahaa, gotcha!

girl : what? you set me with this conversation? how dare you

boy : i am sorry to say this, but i don't want be your boyfriend

girl : who ask you to be? you're swollen-headed!

boy : nobody, but i know you want it. but have you know, that i like you too :D

girl : but i ..

boy : let's we build this relationship as a friendship

girl : but i don't... ah, it's up to you

next day after that conversation, they getting closer, closer, and more closer.. but the girl doesn't know what's the meaning of "like" from the boy. Cause the boy doesn't take any step to go forward . . . Finally, that girl realize that "like" means something.

-to be continue- :D

my (other) boy

Feeling pain .

Inside my heart .

Knowing you with her ..

first, i didn't feel it .

Now, you with me

. You give me some way to go through to ur heart .

And you promise me to not close that way, but now, what are you doing?

You aren't just close it, but you just tore my heart too ...

And right now, i just can ask, why you did this to me ?

long time no see, now you just come to my life (again)

but so sorry, i am insensible now.

just let it flow, boy :)

my (ex) boy

Brave responsibility good looking good attitude lover care honest big tall bright guarding protect funny loyal friendly LOL

my love,my hope,my star,my idol, my big brother ,my role model,my everything

060610 -Speechless. Knowing the truth. Hah! Laughing. You've be with her. Crying. i've been untagged in your heart anymore

050610 God, even he's not mine anymore, i still loving him like in the past. Even he's not put attention anymore to me, i still pray to You for all the goodness that you have for him. Please listen to me this time, God. Give him the better lover to make he smile even You know that i'll cry when i see his smile

120610 - when he was love me, everything was beautiful. Everytime i look into him, all pain was vanished.

180610 - knowing the truth that you was no longer inlove with me. When i was with you, i thought you really with me. I was count on you, but with this thing, god forsake, holly molly. You've got me down. Seriously!

1039 pm - its hard to believe when your crush doesn't fell in love with you with all his heart from the beginning. You try to not believe and ran from this situation. but, all you've got just the unsure thing. And a lot of misery. in your life, a lot of fake happen, but just this lil' damn thing that can make your heart broken into pieces. You try to make this situation better, but all you've got just regrettable thing. No chance for you to make this better, no hope for you to make this just like in your dream.

Janjiku Padanya

"mom, adek yakin ibu bakal dapat surga. adek janji deh!"

kata-kata itu, langsung saja terlontar dari mulutku. karena aku baru saja mendengar sedikit curcol dari ibuku. aku heran dengan ibuku. beliau sangatlah hebat, tak peduli dengan apapun. beliau akan selalu melindungi anaknya. yaa, seperti layaknya seorang orang tua. namun, banyak hal yang tidak aku rasakan sama dengan orang tua yang lain. ada sesuatu yang sangat spesial dari dirinya. kesabaran. kesabarannya sangatlah membuatku kagum.

"mom, akan kupertanggung jawabkan kata-kataku tadi, aku janji."

memang pantas, jikalau surga dikatakan ada di telapak kaki ibu...

i love you mom :')