just for tonight

this night, makes me so sick and so tired of thinking about him. yaa, i know this is about my lability after all. But, in the case like this there's a thousand good reason for thinking about him tonight.

on the night like this, i was thinking that:

- he was irreplaceable

- he was amazing

- there's no chance for me to get him

- being desperado senorita was sucks

- all i want to do just be with him (again)

- i can spin the time counterclockwise

- i can't stand out without him

- i want he to stay beside me

- it's amazing if this heart could be reunited

- there's nobody can't stop me love him

- i can't explain this feeling with words

- i am so tired of tears

- i am not done wishing him was here

- it's been months, and i can't let you go

- for some reason, i can't get over us

- i am not regret what I've done with him

- back to the past, feeling tears inside my heart

- forgetting him, the hardest thing that i ever try

- hoping him back again, the useless thing i ever made

- aargh, too much about him

enough is enough. no more walking around with my head down. i am so over being blue, crying on him this night. hope tomorrow this lability will vanishing it self :D

"every single moment in my life reminds me of you and makes me know how precious you are"

3 months ago :)

" Don't you know baby, that this feeling keeps me waiting like you'll come back to me"

After 3 months from that day, it's hard to believe that i still have love on you. Even it less than before... But, to be with you it's the best damn thing ever. there's nobody gettin' over you. There's a chance to you to be refilled, but i grant there's no chance to you to be replaced. fell in love with you not makes me feel disappointed. Wish i could spin my world into reverse, just to have you back again.

hey boy, don't you know? knowing your heart, makes me feel so in love :) and be with you, makes me feel safe an warm. and your presence always makes me wanting you more and more.But now, i have to release "this" you. With all my heart, i said this LOUDLY : why suddenly i do miss him so much, even both of us had already end our realtionship long loooong time ago?

1 year ago, maybe more pt.1

same as the label, this post is dedicated to you (especially) and also one of my story too

so, this is the beginning :)

Once upon a time, there's a teenage girl who fell in love with her friend, also a teenager (and a boy, of course!). They were one school, and on the same grade too. So, it's possible to them to meet often. And one day, they met for the first time. Some event reconcile them, and that was unpredictable for two of them. They feel some chemistry between them. but they don't know that they loving each other.

Day on day, month on month. They spend their day with normal activity as a student. But, because of the same school and the same grade, they have a lot of activities that should do together. And, once again, they haven't already yet about loving each other. Until someday, that boy screwed up one's courage to ask that girl about their feeling over this time.

boy : hey

girl : oh hey

boy : umm, i wanna ask you for something, do you mind?

girl : oh sure! what can i do?

boy : no offense... you like me, rite! Do you?

girl : what? what do you mean?

boy : naaaa, don't lie to me. or i'll offline

girl : what! noooo!

boy : eh, be honest girl! i know your feeling

girl : noo, i mean don't leave me. do not offline :(

boy : :D

girl : why you grinning at me like that? it's not funny

boy : confess it!!!

girl : err, i hate this conversation

boy : confess, confess, confess

girl : NO WAY!

boy : okay, then i going to offline... bye :P

girl : okay okay okay. i confess to you that i like you since that event

boy : hahahhahahaa, gotcha!

girl : what? you set me with this conversation? how dare you

boy : i am sorry to say this, but i don't want be your boyfriend

girl : who ask you to be? you're swollen-headed!

boy : nobody, but i know you want it. but have you know, that i like you too :D

girl : but i ..

boy : let's we build this relationship as a friendship

girl : but i don't... ah, it's up to you

next day after that conversation, they getting closer, closer, and more closer.. but the girl doesn't know what's the meaning of "like" from the boy. Cause the boy doesn't take any step to go forward . . . Finally, that girl realize that "like" means something.

-to be continue- :D

song? (3rd)

Holding my hands

Say the sweetest thing

you stay beside me

And i think it just a dream

You say its not a dream

Now prove it 'till i believe

So you give me a kiss

And suddenly i know it was real

When you told me you're in love with me

I know it was real and i believe it.

when you told me you're not mine anymore

I know it just dream and i need to wake up

You try to not believe

and ran from this situation.

but, all you've got just the unsure thing. And a lot of misery.

Need you here,need you now. To convince me with your smile

songs? (again)

You are the guy that i thinking about

You are the guy that i adore about

You are the guy that i loving about

Because you are all about me

Because you are my everything

Everytime i see you there

Make me wants to run into

Run into you...

Holding you, stay together with

All 'bout you, cant stop think about you

frienship

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Bersahabat itu juga menyedihkan. Karena melihat sahabatmu sendiri duduk merenung saja kamu juga sudah merasakan kesedihannya. Apalagi kalau sahabatmu itu menceritakan kesedihannya padamu. Pasti kamu semakin terhanyut, lebih terhanyut dari sahabatmu.

Bersahabat pun dapat membuatmu berpikir lebih jernih. Karena kamu akan berpikir sesuatu yang positif, untuk memberikan sugesti terhadap sahabatmu yang sedang membutuhkan nasihat dari sahabatnya.

bersahabat, membuat dirimu menjadi lebih tahu bahwa banyak orang yang merasakan jauh lebih banyak manis pahitnya dunia ini dan kamu pun ikut berperan di dalamnya

DAD? (my)

the previous post was taken from other site.
now, I'll take my time to introduce to you all, my father :)

Maybe he's not like the other father as usual, he has some EXTRAORDINARY CHARACTERISTIC.

first of all, cannot accept all suggestion from other people (include his own family)
second, temperamental (so regretful)
third, always do what he want to do
fourth, never want to be a "servant"
fifth, big ego!!!!
sixth, jealousy with anything
seventh, anything must be perfecto!
eight, full of sarcasm
ninth, he always get what he want, no matter what to do(include violence)
tenth, laziest person in my family

But, even he got that EXTRAORDINARY shit, he always get a way to make my family (especially me) be proud of him again... that's the reason why i cant hate you,paps :)

love you .

best regards,
yours :)